scars

pain rushing thru me like a torrent.
endless display of emotion but its inwards it doesn't show im holding my mask im not giving away clues of the agony that inflicts my soul. why do days keeping rolling on. hours pass to slow and I forever feel alone in this prison.is it fair ti destroy someone's world then expect then back. how can u remedy a situation thats caused so much grief.  is it fair u should be left to bear the scars

Throwing away the negative persona

This blog is all about journeying down the road of recovery. If I write something each day at least the thorts I experience are separated from my mind. Today I shut down my tashas Facebook account mainly for the reasons that the negative posts posted there by other uses and myself are not helping my recovery and my seeing through the challenges of my life the illness and everything else.

I think this was a positive decision but tonight feel heartbroken like a part of me is dying.To deactivate an account is a big step but one account is healthy and the other is damaging. I have chosen to keep my account which is reality people aren't focussing on illness instead they are focused on living real lives getting married having kids and careers. That is life after all isn't it not being stuck behind a computer avoiding reality.

Tonight though my energy s lacking to even write much down in this blog so I will switch off.